…just a thought…

hi people out there..its been a long time since i last updated my tumblr yeah? hmmm..been making myself bz with stuff..going out with dearest n having lots of activities to keep fit n healthy..but the ONE THING is that,i wanna spent as much time i have left as a civilian with my baby before i serve my country..

Guys who goes through NS worries less abt themselves as compared to how much we(guys) worry about our loved ones..NS is something we (fit)guys HAVE to go through..its not a choice that we can make,its an obligation that we have to fulfill..

i WAS worried abt myself going into NS..but i have mentally n physically prepared myself to enter and change from a boy to a men..but there’s only two things tat is bothering me now..yes i am worried..no doubt abt it..i cant hide it..

Firstly, my parents..me being the last child,i have always been home helping out with house chores and alot of the shifting n carrying of stuff in this house..my parents only had me to rely on..to help them to do things that,to them,is considered heavy..like shifting of furnitures for example..how will they cope when im not ard during the weekdays from next week onwards..will they be fine? i dont want them to worry abt me..coz i know how to take care of myself already..but im worried abt them..hmmm..i hope they will do just fine without me ard most of the time..

Secondly,my dearest baby..haiz..she’s been there whenever i need her..she’s been my pillar of strength..but im going in NS now..i will see less of her..only on weekends..tat too,might not be ALL weekends..she’s worried abt me going into NS..i ASSURE u dear..there’s nothing to worry abt me..i WILL and i KNOW how to take care of myself in there..this is part and parcel of a man’s life..NS..we can never escape..im the one who’s worried abt u dear..im in an enclosed area..u are out here in the open world..u can go anywhere and everywhere u want..stay up late,go on the net and many more..but all i can do is,training,training and MORE training..after tat,lights off..tats my daily routine..i just hope u wont make me dead worry abt u dear..i will DEFINATELY contact u whenever i have the time to use my fone..i WILL..i PROMISE u tat..assure me tat u’ll be fine k dear..u DONT have to worry abt me..i WILL be fine..i just want YOU to take good care of urself aites dear..

3 more days till im in..hoping everything goes well…this is the stage where we have to TRUST n have FAITH in each other k dear..i love u very much..from the bottom of my bottomless heart if i can say tat…:’) 

~Confidence in ur dreams, makes it a reality~
-Zureen 

Kerana mulut badan binasa…

I know i’ve made a mistake,i realised it. We sort things out n settle it nicely. We’re turning over a new leaf n tats all tat matters to me now.

But to all those hypocrites out there,u should know who u are,mind ur bloody business. This is abt me and her n has got nothing to do with u. I thank u for being there for her when she needed someone to talk to. But she’s made her decision,so respect it.

Calling me a bastard? U dono the whole story,don jump to conclusion bitch. How do u feel when i call u tat? Burning inside? So if u don want ppl to b calling u names,dont do it to others in the first place.

Dont think u’re always right. I used to have a fren like u in skool,in the end,the only frens she had was another 2 gals. I think u’ll end up just like her. Too much of a hypocrite ends up in loneliness.

My dear Noori has her own mind n brain to think for herself. She does not need u to decide for her future. Advices are welcomed, decisions are to b made by the person themselves,not by u.

If u think u’re so great,prove it to me den.I dont wanna make assumptions unlike some ppl. So i dont wanna intrude into ppl’s private life.which i think u shouldn’t too.

A brand new story…

Thanks for all ur concern ppl..im really touch..now i know who my true frens are..sometimes things have to b done by myself..i’ve learnt my lesson n realise my mistakes..its a brand new book for me nw..a brand new book but with the same old ppl in it..but this time its only me n her with no one interrupting our relationship..if u think u wanna break this relationship of ours,think again..u’ll only manage to do it when i stop breathing..once again,THANKS to all my true friends out there..will always remember u guys..

Love, ZureeNoori

Im not a perfect person…

Im not a perfect person..there’s many things i wish i didnt do..i feel useless,helpless..wat is wrong with me..i have a wonderful gf who loves n cares for me with all her life..i too love her..but wat was i thinking today zureen?! Wtf is wrong with me?!

I’ve toyed with love,i’ve learnt my lesson..pls allow me one last chance..sedangkan nabi boleh ampunkan umatnya,ini kan pula kita manusia..mmg i bersalah..tidak dinafikan..i sedar kesalahan i..TAPI i BERJANJI,sejarah tidak mungkin kan berulang lagi..

Nooridiah Bte Rahim..only u know qat im talking abt,and ONLY u can forgive me in this..abg mmg syg ayg dgn sepenuh hati abg..SUMPAH nothing happened dear..pls believe me..pls trust me..i have no one else to talk to..u have ur frens to talk to,but i have none..i have frens n braders,but when it comes to this,i dont share anything with them..

…PLEASE FORGIVE ME DEAREST NOORIDIAH…

….Hmmmm…

Each time i open my mouth abt it. it turns out to b a fight. a fight that i guess can be avoided if both parties subsided. but no. other party wants to fight on. so a fight it shall be.

Each time i asked. it will either be “i cant remember”, “i dont wanna remember”, “Betul2 tk ingat.” or whatever not. but if u come to think abt it. a past will always remain as a past, and one will ever forget abt their OWN past.

i used to believe that there’s this quote “Forgive and Forget”. but only recently i realised that that quote never really existed!!

u can FORGIVE someone, but u will never FORGET wat ever tat person has done. so why izzit then when ever i ask abt something, the reply will be “I cant remember”, “i cant recall”. so now im confused.

is there really such a phrase as ”Forgive and Forget” or izzit just that u CAN remember but u just DONT WANT to. Even for the sake of LOVE.

Riddle me that…

~Confidence in ur dreams, makes it a reality~
-Zureen 

With Friends like them, im sure life would be great!!

Had a Wonderful Last Bday SURPRISE from my 2 braders ( Shafiq Tahir & Mohamad Tarmimie Bin Adam) and dearest Noorinuryn ZrNri at Vintage DeliCafe this evening!! My 2 braders bought for me a customized cake tat they made it themselves!! How Sweet Can They Be man!! i was really touched today…didnt expect them to give me a last bday surprise!! it’s not easy to get braders like them who goes the extra mile to celebrate ur bday…thanks Bro’s’!!

PS: when i wanted to blow the candles off,i wished that everyone,including my family of cos!, would have a wonderful life ahead of them…wished tat me n dearest Noori would last long till we finally tie a knot and for US (Me,Tarm,Fiq and Noori) to not b ever separated..

True Friends are hard to find…but i know now that i’ve gotten myself 2 Friends and a loveable GF tat will always be there thru thick or thin…:)

~Confidence in ur dreams, makes it a reality~
-Zureen